Mood Swings...

For any of you who may of thought, "she really seems to have it all together..." this blog is for you!

Just a few days ago I was walking along our country road with my precious children thinking about how wonderful and simple my life is. Bliss...

Two days ago I was wondering why I ever thought that... Blah!!

Life as a stay at home mother has proven to be the greatest dichotomy that I have ever experienced. I am soaring with joy one minute and stuck in the biggest pit the next. I wish I could put my finger on what the problem is with me... I think it is probably to battle between my flesh (part of me that wants what I want, when I want it, no matter what... the part that loves sin) and my renewed spirit (the part of me that was changed when I trusted Christ, the part of me that really isn't me at all, but Him, the Lord, in the person of the Holy Spirit, in me). This is clearly spoken of in scripture (Romans 7:7-25; Galatians 5:16-17). It is a comfort to me to know that others who have loved God with all their heart and have strove to honor Him and glorify Him with their very lives have also struggled with this.

I love my children! This is not just a saying... it is fact. Yet I find myself being impatient, demanding, short tempered, sarcastic, nasty and hurtful to these 3 precious little ones. They are only children... what do I expect from them. Actually that is one of the problems... I often expect more from them then I expect from myself. I encourage them (and sometimes harp at them) to be loving, patient, kind, not repaying evil for evil, forgiving, not become easily offended, and to not let any unwholesome thing come out of their mouths... I should be taking my own advice.

So, for the past two days I have been struggling with this. I have been praying and I have asked others to pray for me as well. I know that this is not a battle between flesh and blood... that is a battle fought in the reality that we can not see... but I also know that I have been fully engaged in the fight. Through this time (and others that I have experienced and no doubt will experience again) I have been reminding myself of scripture that is TRUE...

Romans 8:1 "Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death.

Philippians 4:8 "Finally, brothers. whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - think about such things."

2 Corinthians 10:3-5 "For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ."

2 Corinthians 4:16-18 "Therefore we do not loose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."

Psalm 21:6-7 (adapted) "Surely you have granted me eternal blessings and made me glad with the joy of your presence. For I trust in the Lord; through the unfailing love of the Most High I will not be shaken."

1 Peter 5:6-7 "Humble yourselves therefore, under God's might hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."


Praise God that the Lord does not vacillate like I do. He is constant, true, trustworthy, faithful, and steadfast. I am so glad that Jesus loves me.

"On Christ the solid rock I stand, all other ground is sinking sand, all other ground is sinking sand!"